Say What You Need to Say...

Please pardon the grammatical mistakes this was just free flow writing unedited:

There is a moment in a movie that I like where I always get infuriated. So, the gist of it is this, the protagonist is in love with her best friend. And there is this moment when they are alone together that she should confess herself. She should let her walls down and just say “I am in love with you” But the moment is gone in a breath and she then lives through the inevitable of him marrying the ‘other’ woman and I always wonder what would have been the case if she had just taken that moment to say “ I am in love with you” And I think the reason that moment in the movie always grabs me is because I know that flaw. I missed moments.

We were in the restaurant and he asked me what was up. That I seemed different. It was it that was my moment. I thought “I am falling for you” and I said that I was just tired or some other dismissal of what I truly felt for fear of rejection and discomfort. Not to mention the man was a few weeks out from his divorce being final and I thought it crazy unwise to mess with what had become a very important friendship. I chose logic and reason over honesty and it still is that moment that I look at in the same way I see that scene on the boat in the heart of Chicago. It might have changed things if I hadn’t waited. And it may not have. But I’ll never know because the inevitable played out. There is an ‘other’ woman that is in his orbit.

And I suspect that where ever the time took Jewels, she is still single and in her own way occasionally pining away for what would have been.