I woke up this morning with a pit in my stomach and ache in my heart. I am tired of this. It has been over 7 months since I've even seen him. I don't know why my brain won't let it go.
I want to focus on a new relationship. But I can't seem to find a man that I mesh with. I also want to turn my attentions to better things. I want to write more. I want to earn more income and be growing in my job. I also miss hiking and warm weather. I want to garden and cook. I want to have more going on. I want to take cooking classes and yoga classes. I'd also like to join a choir or a band. I have far too many interests to live this dull of a life. Yes I wish Rob would be a part of all of it but he isn't and he won't be. Now if only my subconscious would get the hint. Oh Universe help me.